sometimes i go so far inside myself that members of my own species seem like an alien race. i cant find anything remotely familiar in the world. like being trapped in a strange dream. it takes genuine effort to make myself empathize with anyone. the most basic expressions give me considerable trouble and i often find that even my reactions to outside stimuli must be forced. i am listless and numb. nothing penetrates the wall i’ve constructed. i feel less human every day.